I live alone, I eat alone, I take myself on dates and I sleep alone. In the midst of this I am supposed to learn about myself, I am supposed to figure out what inspires me. But the only thing I learn everyday is this pain and sufferring, or at least thats what I highlight. I believe it imposes only difficulties on my progress.

Years ago I encountered a minor motorbike accident in a city where nobody follows the traffic rules. Bikes and cars drift like crazy day and night. I was driving one and another biker hit me from behind. None of my bones broke, but the joint of my arm and shoulder was hurt and I have to live with this pain for the rest of my life.

In winter outdoor temperature remains as low as zero degree Celsius and I try not to leave my room, where I can breathe in a temperature of around 20 degree. When its really necessary to go out, I put on warm jackets.

On the morning of Physics exam, I fell on the bathroom floor. I didn't have the slightest idea that something like this might happen. It has never happenned before. Perhaps the lack of sleep during exam preparion could explain it. I don't know how long I was senseless, nevertheless I managed to show up at the exam thanks the nervous system. I thought its nothing, but after 48 hours I had to realize the need to go to the hospital. The doctor asked why I did not come 48 hours ago, but it was hard for me to explain 'the why' to him.

The X-ray reports confirmed that everything is in order.

And in the midst of this I am learning about myself, which I am supposed to do. I am also supposed to cook for me, eat, clean my dishes and clothes, take showers, sleep, wake up, go to work and study for the exam which is due on the day after tomorrow. As I look at the clock, used up some 20 minutes of study time to write all these. Need to go back to that stress strain curve now. I hope you all taking care of yourselves.

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